~Blue
posted at 5:58 PM
Never mind. =.=
Anyway.
Today {At night/evening} we had to have this injection thing near home. I was scared to death. At first it was okay, I just crossed my arms and clutched my sleeves while hopping to one foot to another, hoping I could just disappear.
But then it was my turn. I suddenly started crying. Oh gosh. My mother told me I could go last, then. So I got up and waited more anxiously than ever, it was even worse than my injection in Primary 6! I guess 'cus there are my friends there and I feel more comfortable with people staring at me when I know them, and probably because of the long wait and I convinced my friends to be calm and I seemed to convince myself a little bit. But THIS was worse. My FAMILY was staring at me, some neighbours were there too.
My dad scolded me, saying if I was so tough and brave to fight the boys for the girls (when the boys bully girls) or just punch the boys when I have the thought to, why can't I just face a tiny injection that was nothing more than a mosquito bite that you can notice? He had a point, but the worst thing was he called me a coward. Brr.
Finally I HAD to take my turn. So I sat down, crying, and took off my jacket, then *fwp*, it was done. But I felt it, because my skin was exposed for heaven's sake, who would not feel something on your exposed part of your skin? Ouch! It was painful, and when I was done I was crying more than ever.
Luckily the people who hosted this event thing was some other neighbours, and a nurse, (but why that house?). So it was more social, less serious. So the people gave the "brave little kids" a chocolate. I didn't want one because it was the big ones, the round chocolate with the golden wrapper. And I didn't want one because I was crying, but they had unwrapped it so I just took it.
My dad, brothers, and maid had already went home after their turn so my mom and I slowly walked.
I was crying and it was a good chance to talk to my mother why was I so scared or stuff like that.
I admitted my dad was probably right, I'm just a coward, or scaredy-cat, or chicken, but NOT a womanizer like what Michael says (That was just a random statement).
I often bully/hit the boys (I can't say bully) because I don't wanna be the small one. I also want to get "revenge" for my gal pals of course, and since I have fists I thought I should do it. My secret fear: Injections. You'll know that I'm just a little coward when it's time for injections.
My big brother often is the one who gets hit, not by me of course (unless it is playing). But he isn't scared of a little thing like that injection. Weird, huh! We're complete opposites, even in gender (duh XD)
I had no "appetite" for the chocolate but in the end I ate it. My mom told me to just go along without lifting a fist, not to hit the boys anymore unless to defend myself when I can't contact an adult in time.
She said they would be even more scared of me if I keep within, they'll think is she just pretending to be a small person? She could really be a fierce tiger-like person! I'd better not bother her!
That made sense, it was like sneaking up on someone you don't know.
But in any case...
I'm just a coward at heart. {Same goes for you, Saya. But Saya didn't take the injection so I'm not sure, lol.}
~Blue
posted at 4:36 AM
Anyway.
I read Suki's post this morning, and BOY do I agree with her! But I don't hate the two boys on chat. Tho they piss me off constantly.
Blue should start dating people, or "befriending" people whom are more reliable and trustworthy. You know them by face.
I think Roger is a perfect match for her, he often offers to walk home with her (with me around of course, I live just next door to Blue =| ) And he makes her laugh! He's friendly to her, and is never the first to tease her or mock her, he never does. In fact he teaches her a bit more Chinese, AND never wears a frown. He's someone who you can count on and look to when you're down. Unlike that guy from chat.
But of course, it's Blue's choice to...well...break up with you-know-who from chat or not.
~Saya
posted at 2:23 AM
But luckily, in my opinion, she's going to quit xat (the chat's company thingy name). Or she did that already, I dunno.
Well.
Saya told me this boy from school, Roger, had been making Blue smile/laugh everyday (in school). And often Blue says she enjoys school because there are friends (not just Roger, lol) to make her happy.
I think Blue should be better off without that chat dude, even though he is a nice guy. They never even MET face to face. And I dislike him because he's too soft on girls, he's such a pity-fest. Same goes for his friend "Neo". And the two NEVER listens, especially to Saya. I just hate him and that friend of his. Blue should break up with him and perhaps start dating people whom she can trust and can meet face-to-face, which is more meaningful.
~ Suki.
posted at 2:17 AM
Friday, November 7, 2008
...
Today was parent-student-teacher conference. There my mom talked to my teachers about my progress.
...
Dinner time was several minutes ago...my dad scolded me. Cus he said that "I should ask when I have problems in school" and "I should tell him when I need to get something for school."
Geez.
He's scolding himself also, he didn't realize. He's never at home. NEVER. He is barely around, and he never pays any attention to me. Grrrr. I wish I could throw my chicken wing at him and say that. But I knew I would be in bigger badder trouble.
I went to the bathroom twice so I won't be crying in front of dinner. My grandfather always said that for whatever reason you cry during mealtime it's like you're not being grateful for having rice in your bowl.
Anyway.
At least my mom is here now. At least I CAN tell HER my problems even if I can't tell my dad my problems.
In any case, my dad doesn't realize that the reason why I won't tell him or couldn't tell him is
1. He barely pays any attention to me.
2. He's NEVER around.
3. He wouldn't understand.
Oh well.
A dinner with the entire family can be harsh.
~Blue
posted at 4:04 AM
Then at home Josh said I shouldn't have interfered. I asked why, did he want to die? He said he wanted to fight them to prove himself and other people he was strong. He was trying to get into fights to be strong!
He's so damn annoying. He said he hates me for stopping that from happening. He's such a crybaby and a spoilt brat!
Luckily, I'm 15 so I have a 1-year older authority over him. I gave his face a tight slap. I scolded him for being so selfish. He said "I HATE YOU! YOU'RE SUCH A BIG @$$%0^$!!!" I slapped him again then went home.
Well, that was what happened yesterday. Blue was talking to Josh while he walked his dog, a black scottie named Jackie. I heard Blue say this "You can't blame Saya." and Josh said "She's an idiot, Gabby." "Hmph! Being older than me but I know more than you. The only way to become strong is when you protect someone, baka." Then she walked away.
Well, I'm not sure what crap Josh would be up to now, let's hope he turned over a new leaf!
~Saya
posted at 2:15 AM
Thursday, November 6, 2008
~Blue
posted at 9:21 PM
This blog is for Blue, Saya and Suki, the three "musketeers"!
Together we rule the world!!!!!!! With stories, videos, blog-entries and other random crap.
Watch out, we bite.
We will enter posts of our daily life and everything. And if we don't, don't be disappointed.
Now, we word from the three.
Together we rule the world!!!!!!! With stories, videos, blog-entries and other random crap.
Watch out, we bite.
We will enter posts of our daily life and everything. And if we don't, don't be disappointed.
Now, we word from the three.
You will be lucky if stories are uploaded.
~Blue
I'll post my latest triumph in battles with the boys!
~Saya
I got littlest to say.
~Suki
~Blue
I'll post my latest triumph in battles with the boys!
~Saya
I got littlest to say.
~Suki
\\ Blue.Saya.Suki //
posted at 8:37 PM
