Friday, November 21, 2008
=Stares at Saya and Suki after what they said=
Never mind. =.=
Anyway.
Today {At night/evening} we had to have this injection thing near home. I was scared to death. At first it was okay, I just crossed my arms and clutched my sleeves while hopping to one foot to another, hoping I could just disappear.
But then it was my turn. I suddenly started crying. Oh gosh. My mother told me I could go last, then. So I got up and waited more anxiously than ever, it was even worse than my injection in Primary 6! I guess 'cus there are my friends there and I feel more comfortable with people staring at me when I know them, and probably because of the long wait and I convinced my friends to be calm and I seemed to convince myself a little bit. But THIS was worse. My FAMILY was staring at me, some neighbours were there too.
My dad scolded me, saying if I was so tough and brave to fight the boys for the girls (when the boys bully girls) or just punch the boys when I have the thought to, why can't I just face a tiny injection that was nothing more than a mosquito bite that you can notice? He had a point, but the worst thing was he called me a coward. Brr.
Finally I HAD to take my turn. So I sat down, crying, and took off my jacket, then *fwp*, it was done. But I felt it, because my skin was exposed for heaven's sake, who would not feel something on your exposed part of your skin? Ouch! It was painful, and when I was done I was crying more than ever.
Luckily the people who hosted this event thing was some other neighbours, and a nurse, (but why that house?). So it was more social, less serious. So the people gave the "brave little kids" a chocolate. I didn't want one because it was the big ones, the round chocolate with the golden wrapper. And I didn't want one because I was crying, but they had unwrapped it so I just took it.
My dad, brothers, and maid had already went home after their turn so my mom and I slowly walked.
I was crying and it was a good chance to talk to my mother why was I so scared or stuff like that.
I admitted my dad was probably right, I'm just a coward, or scaredy-cat, or chicken, but NOT a womanizer like what Michael says (That was just a random statement).
I often bully/hit the boys (I can't say bully) because I don't wanna be the small one. I also want to get "revenge" for my gal pals of course, and since I have fists I thought I should do it. My secret fear: Injections. You'll know that I'm just a little coward when it's time for injections.
My big brother often is the one who gets hit, not by me of course (unless it is playing). But he isn't scared of a little thing like that injection. Weird, huh! We're complete opposites, even in gender (duh XD)
I had no "appetite" for the chocolate but in the end I ate it. My mom told me to just go along without lifting a fist, not to hit the boys anymore unless to defend myself when I can't contact an adult in time.
She said they would be even more scared of me if I keep within, they'll think
is she just pretending to be a small person? She could really be a fierce tiger-like person! I'd better not bother her!That made sense, it was like sneaking up on someone you don't know.
But in any case...
I'm just a coward at heart. {Same goes for you, Saya. But Saya didn't take the injection so I'm not sure, lol.}
~Blue
posted at 4:36 AM
